quietplace | un: klapbak

(Eddie had debated on whether or not to share this piece of information. But what the natives had said weighed on him heavily, and he felt like if he didn't and something were to happen...

He wasn't so sure he could live with that guilt.)

I asked one of the natives if bad things from our homes could come to this place. They said it was possible.

maybe some of you will think I'm crazy. Or the adults won't believe it. The adults in our town didn't believe anything and they didn't want to pay attention to what was happening. they didn't care about all the missing kids. I don't care if you believe it or not. some stuff exists whether or not people want to believe it does. me and my friends took care of it before and we'll do it again if we have to. we made that promise.

our town had this fucked up evil in it. and im not talking hellfire church-evil stuff either. I'm talking like...fear. real fear. maybe even the thing that made Fear

IT knew what you were afraid of. no, not your 'kind of' fears like thinking spiders are gross. i mean the kind of fears you dont even tell your best bud about. the kind of fears you don't even tell YOURSELF about cause the shame's so bad. IT knew you and IT fed off those fears. i guess it liked how kids tasted best when they died in terror

IT ate them too. im not saying it like sucked out their soul. no. IT would

(Eddie has to stop here. To breathe. To focus. He touches his own arm, closes his eyes, and counts.)

i cant explain how you'll know when you'll see IT
you'll feel
like you have to go towards something real bad, real scary
you'll know you shouldn't but you HAVE to...and maybe you'll be lucky like we were
like i was. and be able to get away when the fear gets bad enough.

IT takes the shape of a clown the most when ITS just existing normally. IT only changes when its hunting. IT can come through pictures or sinks or anything. i dont know what ITs limits even were

sometimes IT called ITself Pennywise the Dancing Clown. IT told me its name was Bob Gray when IT talked to me. And sometimes you could hear that carnival sorta music.Sometimes it'd lure you in with the smell of popcorn. IT sometimes had balloons. A lot of balloons. I don't know. It lived in the sewers and

I want to say we beat IT for good but we didn't. i'm not sure if IT can BE beaten.

I dont know if IT'll ever show up here
but don't trust things to be what they seem. don't.

and maybe realize the monsters you know might come here too. please be careful.

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[She might have chalked this up to a bored kid pranking everyone except she knows this song. Her very first villain pulled this to a less horrific extent and got away with it for so long because people didn't care. Once again Kamala feels lucky. Sure, The Inventor was crazy, awful, and nearly killed a bunch of kids including her. At least he wasn't a literal monster. He could be put in jail or killed. What he's describing is a malevolent force of nature. She knows that she has to speak up here. No one should have to face monsters alone.]

I believe you. I'm sorry for whatever it's worth. I know what it's like to have to face someone who is stealing other kids and preying on their fear. It's terrifying to have that many lives in your hands so you won't do it with just you and your friends.

If IT comes here, I promise I'll fight with you no matter how scary it gets.

(Her apology is worth more than she probably realizes. Eddie has spent the entirety of his life feeling like this was just how things went. You lived in awful places with awful people and awful monsters and that was that. And in a place like that? No one offered their condolences. No one. There was a reason the Losers had held so tightly onto one another when they found each other.

So his response, though simple, is more genuine than can be properly translated through text. These people believing him, and offering their sympathy? It made Eddie feel..grateful. It made him feel a little less crazy. Being validated was a very empowering feeling, and empowerment was a feeling very unknown to Eddie Kaspbrak. He'd only felt it a couple times in his short life.)

Thank you. It's worth a lot more than I know how to say, honestly.

I dont want more people to get killed or get hurt. Im not
rallying for an army or anything
i dont even think an army would stop IT
i just want people to be okay and safe.

IT can be horrifying. it's not just...fear. it's so much worse.

You're welcome. I'm glad it helped a little since no one should have to go through that.

I get that you and your friends have been super brave and taken on a lot, but I think after hearing this a lot of people won't be okay with this being all on you guys. We're a community. If we don't look out for our own, what's the point? This place sucks enough without leaving one group to deal with something that's worse than fear.

tl;dr: What you guys did and are still willing to do is awesome, but if everything goes even more wrong it's okay to accept help from other people. We want to help!

(They were brave? Eddie would always agree that his friends had spines of steel, but him? Eddie was just a coward. He was only there to try and do what he could do because he would never let his friends handle this on their own.

And before he can ask why she and all these other people who don't know them, don't understand the situation, would come forward to help, she answers that question for him.)

you really think we belong?

(It almost felt funny. Eddie was pretty sure the town of Derry had never once looked twice at the Losers Club and felt any sort of protective instinct. The teachers always looked away from Bev's bruises, or turned the halls when Henry had Eddie in a choke hold. They were just another waste of space.)

everyone here is so kind.
i dont really understand why anyone would put their necks on the line for us
but i know i also cant tell people what to do

Thank you. we'd still probably do what we can, but maybe it wouldn't be the worst idea to fall back on others for help. it's not like i want my friends getting hurt either.

Do you think it's cowardly to ask for help though?

I really do. When I first woke up here I was scared out of my mind. I missed my family and friends so much. I didn't know if I could survive without them. I would still be scared if people hadn't cared enough to help me. What's happening here isn't okay, but most of us are trying to do the right thing by each other. That's why we belong together no matter what happens next.

Don't think it's cowardly to need help, okay? No one survives on their own. We have to be a team so that maybe no one gets hurt... or at least not as hurt. You don't have to understand why as long as you accept this is how it's going to be.

i was too. i had an asthma attack like a loser and then my best friend was there which helped a lot. im lucky to have two of my friends here. are you still alone?

if you are, i could be your friend. everyone needs friends.

i think you're right. people keep doing kind things without wanting anything in return for it. just to be nice. i like that idea. if we just all stick together as a community then i guess anythign could work.

Okay. I think i can accept that. I wouldnt want any of you getting hurt so I gotta let you guys feel the same way back.

Whats your name by the way?

[She's ready with a whole lecture about how an asthma attack does not make him a loser when she reads the rest of that. It stings badly. Kamala has never really been alone like this before. She had Nakia and then Bruno. She's made a bunch of other friends along the way with more even to come. Here she's just dumb kid to be pitied by the adults. She swallows past the lump in her throat to reply.]

Yeah, I could use some friends. It's hard to make them without school, I guess. I don't know anyone here really. Plus it'd be a pretty awesome to be friends with someone that brave!! Don't let your lung problems get you down! >( Even if Captain America used to have those kind of problems and no one called him a loser... except for those people who bullied him, but they all suck so much that no one remembers them!!!!!!!

My name is Kamala by the way! What's your name?

(Eddie's really never been alone either. Except a couple times- but those had been real bad times in his life, times he didn't like thinking about. With this girl's generosity, it felt right to offer her that friendship. It was sincere too. She seemed like the kind of person he would want as a friend.)

I never had a lot of friends. Especially at school. But now you know some people here and I think people here are a little nicer.

Wait are you calling ME brave??? trust me. out of my group i am EASILY the biggest coward

Captain America used to get bullied??? No way. That's. HE'S HUGE

I'm Eddie! It's nice to meet you Kamala. OR I guess talk to you?? What do you look like so I know if I see you in person?

That's true. It didn't take long for them to welcome me. But, okay back to you! FACING SOMETHING THAT'S WORSE THAN FEAR IS TOTALLY BRAVE. Besides, it's not a contest. You can all be brave so don't knock yourself like that!! I mean even talking about what happened to you guys is brave, I think.

Now to Captain America: yep! Back when he was all tiny and fighting bullies in Brooklyn people bullied him for like everything. How he looked, who his friend was, his hobbies, etc etc.

Finally about me... uh okay. Well I have brown hair, eyes, skin... I have long-ish wavy brown hair too. I'm also petite! What do you look like?

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